So today work was pretty stressful. I love my job but it seems the very reason I love my job is the same reason I hate my job. I love my job because I love making a difference in people's lives and I am getting paid for it. It kills me though because I do play such a huge role in their lives and that scares me. This job is so different than others, like if I worked at Walmart or a bank, I call in sick I have to make it up later if at all but if I am sick or missing from work at Cathedral Home it is very serious.
It seems everything is wearing on me lately, life, school, work, being homesick, and even friendships. I am hoping I have enough in me to finish out this semester with all it can be. I feel like I try so hard yet have nothing to show for it. I also feel like I am not doing anything right lately, especially at work. I am a hard worker, just like the rest of my family but lately I feel like everything I do is wrong. I hate when I am wrong. Every once in a while, yeah, it happens, but it seems like one thing after another I just keep messing up.
Hopefully I can learn from my mistakes and run with them. I also need to learn to leave work at work but it is so difficult when these kids mean so much to me!
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